Reducing Social Media, Day 1: Stages of Grief

An illustration I made of how I feel about social media these days. As my late friend Reggie used to say: It’s time to take out the trash!

Social media will help you feel connected, they said. But they were wrong. At least for me. More and more, social media has fed my delusions of alienation. Not because everyone seems like shiny happy people but because I keep searching for an answer without knowing the question. My unconscious mind keeps yearning for the dead to slip into my DMs as easily as their mortal fingertips and curious mind once did on the regular. But alas, nothing. Nothing but doom scrolling through cute pix and silly jokes. Platitudes and random thoughts. Pristine visages and unbreakable bods. Egos adorned with tinseled compliments and the envious trolls lurking and ready to fire insults and demands of unrelenting time and energy. Oh the invaluable time and energy I have wasted indulging in all of the above, both as spectator and as sharer of spectacle. I am guilty of partaking in the collective dumpster fire when I could’ve been investing in my general well being. And that is why I decided to delete social media from my phone as an experiment in measuring my mental healthiness. How long will it last? Well, I already cheated by checking IG and FB through my phone’s web browser maybe a dozen times since deletion time last night. It bums me out that so many of my friends solely use social media as a way to text or call. I feel like there is no escape from its ubiquitousness. Like I couldn’t even quit if I wanted to. And THAT is what I find the most unnerving: the very real threat of losing touch with some of my favorite humans if I completely jump ship. And what’s equally as maddening: the removal of choice. Anyone who truly knows me knows how much I recoil when I’ve no choice in any matter. You know what’s worse than having no choice? Having the ILLUSION of choice. And that is where I will leave today’s automatic writing blog report. Until tomorrow…

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